I believe, partly through experience, that sincerity, love, true people, and peace exist. It's not found outside ourselves. It's inside. Wholesome thoughts, right views, reveal the garden inside our hearts and then we see the world as the reflections of our hearts. This Truth is not limited to any religion, happiness belongs to all. This is my mind you're entering, be prepared for anything......
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Something about me-Ng Xin Zhao
On financial aid, I decided to make full use of the opportunities in NUS, so I joined in University Scholar's Programme, Special Programme in Science and Special Programme in Mathematics in addition to my double major. Other than that, I also dabble in CCA, joining in Physics Society, Nam Wah Pai (Chinese Martial Art) and Buddhist Society. Currently I'm only active in NUS Buddhist Society as the Deputy Dharma Director and going to take up the Management committee again this year.
Well, let me talk more about my social life, which is more relevant to the module of Human Relations. During my (all boys) secondary school life, I was labelled as a bookworm, for bringing a book wherever I go and reading whenever I got the chance to. I was a social clutz and mostly live in my own world.
After going to High School, I started to actively interact and be more outspoken in the class, also it is a bit of adjusting to do sitting in a mixed (gender) class. This is because I got inspired by the few “Jokers” in my classes who got lots of attention and popularity. Being addicted to the taste of popularity after getting top results and skipping a grade in my primary school, I modelled myself to be funny, strange and good to regain the popularity, and I was the most infamous person in school!
Due to some good fortune and lots of reading due to interest, I got selected to represent Malaysia in the International Physics Olympiad (IPhO) in 2007 and 2008. This did much to boost my self confidence and make me even more famous. My blog which I started in 2007 (my last year of high school) http://ngxinzhaomonk.blogspot.com/ got lots of hits after I got silver medal in 2008. During the 2007 IPhO, I collected the emails of almost every participants, thus almost all my shyness in talking to strangers at a social event evaporated there.
The Olympiad allows me to have the opportunity to stay in a local University (UKM) to study physics there even before I got admitted to any university. So for the two months there I felt the first real taste of what loneliness is in the nights. I was away from family and friends and there wasn't much to do at night. This is in stark contradiction with the self-image that I had of me being a lonely traveller (and liking it).
The loneliness ends when I joined in their Buddhist Fellowship activities and made new friends there. I even got to star as the baby Prince Siddhārtha (the Buddha) in their biggest annual activity! My involvement in Buddhist Society in NUS (attending 4 out of 5 of the weekly activities per week during my second year) continues on mainly through interest and spiritual commitment. Using my new found social skills (not being shy) and weird (and unique) personality, I felt just at home in NUSBS.
However there is another home in NUS for me, and that is SPS. It's mainly because I spend so much time in the SPS room (sleepovers, homework, permanent placement of my laptop, friends and boardgames). Being a relatively small community (50-30 people per batch), I know everyone in SPS and everyone knows me!
Despite all these homes, I still feel that I'm in adequate in social skills and human relationships as exemplified my friends at both homes that I'm just like Sheldon in the Big Bang Theory (Social skills wise, but at least I do learn). Hence the interest in this module!
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
My Birthday!
This brings back memories, just last year on my birthday, I took SAT2, in the middle of the same top 5 camp. And in 2004 I celebrated in a Jamboree camp in Malacca.
I dearly miss the days of one year ago where Cavan and Kent Loong are with me. The other 4 now are too quiet and a bit cold. I had quite a pressure on myself to make things livelier. Perhaps I should just concentrate on doing my job of studying and go through some hardship with them. Perhaps I should abandon the arrogant attitude of know-it-all-just-because-I-went-there-before. Kent Loong, your wisdom is beyond my grasp. Save me!!!
On another note, preparation for NUS is quite tedious and troublesome. So I'm going NUS, who's with me? Talking about that, I meet the guys who are going for the International Chemistry Olympiad in NUS Welcome Tea. Gavin was one of them. They are going for a month of intensive training before going for the Competition. Well, hopefully Malaysia will get some golds from these 2 Olympiads this year.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
3rd IPhO Camp
It is regretted that Ooi boon teik, a promising candidate has not turn up for the camp due to health reasons. Therefore a mara student is called up to replace him at the last minute. As expected there are no females among the top 10 even through females occupy 25% of the population in the 2nd camp. Other than 4 Mara Malay students, the remaining Chinese are 1 Kedah, 1 Chung Ling (Penang), 2 Klang High School, 1 Malacca high and 1 more ex-Malacca High.
All during the camp, an IQ test is given individually to 9 of the students, since 1 of them had taken it last year. The IQ test, EQ test and the test results of the 4 hours of Thursday Experimental & Friday Theoretical each will be used to consider who will make it to the top 5.
The atmosphere of the camp was one of utter silence. One of us is bored as heaven as he tries to establish a more lively atmosphere. The main reason of the silence maybe the result of the tension between the candidates to make it into the top 5. However there is in no way any hostility between any candidates. The one who had tried so hard to enliven the atmosphere had brought them to the public library and sneak in with them to read some of the books there.
As hero had been in UKM for 2 months now and had quite an experience on where to go to spend his time. He is also the unofficial leader of the 6 Chinese as he always lead them to anywhere until he's sick of it and prefer to go alone on Thursday night. He had noticed that he liked the post of leader much and preferred to lead whenever in travel-walking. However the responsibility of making sure the rest keep up is just not suited to his style. Our hero is grateful through that he has company at nights so that he will not get too lonely.
As a last word, to the top 5 who are chosen, make sure you guys study hard and get all 5 medals for Malaysia!
Monday, April 07, 2008
My Second Home
Having been an Olympiad last year, I was invited to go to the National University of Malaysia (UKM) to train for the International Physics Olympiad (IPhO) 2008. The nights there are lonely, boring and oppressing as I was leaving home for the first time, living alone.
Along came a light in my darkness, the UKM Buddhist Fellowship (UKMBF) which holds activities every Tuesdays and Thursdays nights had welcomed me warmly into their fold. Celebrating birthdays over lunch, fetching us back to our hostels, and sharing pens and papers for the Dharma lessons really makes it easy for me to make dozens of new friends.
Naturally, I was elated to be invited to play the role of Prince Siddhartha in a dance during the Panggung Bodhi 2008 (Night of Bodhi), a major event organized by UKMBF. The downside is that I’ll be busy taking my results in Malacca and moving to Petaling Jaya on the week before the big night on Sunday. I only managed to come back to UKM after 5 hours of various public transportations on Thursday, in fear of missing too many rehearsals that they take back their offer, and started helping them on that very night. I learned that I had only got to walk 7 steps and then point to the heaven and earth while stepping on a pop-up lotus on the last step. And I am apparently the only one that had to change in to a half covered sari top with all the other dances wearing full covered costumes.
This did not deter me from making it to Saturday night’s full rehearsal after getting back from my new home. I learned to be more open minded as I realize University girls are not as shy as high school girls.
My first rehearsal went badly as I did a number of obvious mistakes. However, instead of stern scolding or any kind of criticism, they, UKMBF, help guided me in the details and encouraging me to do better in the next rehearsal as I was playing the most important character. You bet this application that I did perfectly on the second rehearsal!
Finally on the big day, I had my hair done and make up applied a few hours before my play. It’s a peculiar sensation to be part of the team and going on stage, but the applause that came after my last step was beyond words.
Panggung Bodhi was a great success and I rejoiced and celebrated with them, proud to be part of them, happy that they are happy, and most of all honoured to be entrusted with my role.
As the end of the semester looms near, a farewell ceremony is in order. And I took this opportunity to express my feelings of gratitude to everyone in UKMBF for bringing joy and happiness to me. They again showed their constant welcome and kindness, I was touched, UKMBF, you are really my second home.
Who am I? I am one of the UKMBF!
Sunday, March 30, 2008
2nd Camp
So there are only 16 of us with me in KAB and the others in KKM. It's quite an adventure to them as they need to walk more than 30 minutes to reach the Physics Building whereas I only need 10. However I sense that they don't have much of an adventuring spirit. The camp presents nothing much new to me and Boon Teik, except for the polar coordinates.
After I have shown Boon Teik a walk to a shop to photocopy a book I have, he told me that this was the best camp.
Wednesday night I walked to KKM and shared rubiks cube fun with ZQ.
Thursday, The EXperimental EXAm! I did badly on the 1st experiment but I think the 2nd one is quite nice and I believe I have a unique method.
The Theory Exam was easy, except for the Jupiter Question.
Sunday, March 23, 2008
Siddhartha!




Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Panggung Bodhi
On Thursday night, I went and helped out for the first time, and got to see the rehearsals. I learned how to make the pretty paper flowers! Friday, I went to wash my clothes (which on a wholly unrelated case, I did too yesterday) and helped out a little, there were no rehearsals. I helped cut out the big letters of PANGGUNG BODHI 2008!
On Saturday, I had the Honor to....( to be continued)
Monday, March 17, 2008
Life Changes
After applying to NUS and NTU, and receiving the news of Caltech's rejection, I came back to UKM. I planned to help out in the Panggung Bodhi 2008 that UKM Buddhist Fellowship held every year.
However, coming back on Thursday, I found out that I had left my key in melaka! This naturally made me angry and desparate as I just took a 5 hour journey via bus, walking, rapid KL LRT, KTM and finally UKM bus here. Good thing I had good friends that allowed me to sleep in their room. I took the spare key on Friday and ignored their "return it in 5 minutes" policy. I returned it on Sunday and much to my relieve, they only charged me RM3. Of course I took back my keys on Saturday in the new KL house (thanks to Ching Siang and my parents) and had to rush back here to participate in the rehearsals. Now back in UKM on Monday, I still don't know what to apply for and which scholarships are going to expire in the next few days.
One more bad news before I sign out, MIT has just rejected me too, yesterday.
Wednesday, March 05, 2008
Mid Valley twice in a row.
1. Slippers
2. Mosquito mat
3. Suction Hanger
4. Plaster
5. Bathing gel
6. Bathmat
So goes my list. Going for dinner first (I had skipped lunch), I went and search the mall and found most of my things in Carrefour. A trip to MPH had taken almost an hour and 2 books are bought back to accompany me :
- Rama Revealed by Arthur C. Clark and Gentry Lee
- Next by Micheal Crichton
By the way on the last weekend I when back to Malacca and finished up Dragon Ball GT. It's a really nice series, worth the buy I say.
Judging by the Accuracy of my predictions of SPM results coming out date, I'll say that STPM results will be out on the 15th of March 2008.
Thursday, February 28, 2008
The list of Sucessful candidates to the 2nd round.
Amir Aiman b. Md Hassan |
Cheah Zhi Quan |
Choo Kay Wei |
Chow Chia Eu |
Haziq Ramli |
Kee Wee Siong |
Lee Boon Siang |
Liau Li Ming |
Mah Shuk Ying |
Muhammad Syafiq b. Johar |
Muhd. Khairul Azri b. Zulkipli |
Ng Xin Zhao |
Nurul Ain bt. Azizan |
Ooi Boon Teik |
Phan Chow Fu |
Raja Nuruk Yuhanis bt. Raja Abdul |
Saw Siong Keat |
Yong Ii Yang |
Study Hard you guys and gals and make Malaysia Proud!
Disclaimer: due to too many people asking me whether the following information is true or not, I wish to say that I dunno the true validity of the following information except that I can trust my aunt. My aunt who is a teacher told me that the dates of the release of SPM results is 12th of March 2008 and 15th March for STPM.
Disclaimer over.
Now for the old Franciscans, www.thefranciscan.org is a website to sign up on to. As for all my form 5 2005 classmates, remember to come to the 128th Anniversary Dinner on the 5th of April 2008 in SFI!
Now back to me. 2 days ago, I had joined the Buddhist Fellowship Dharma Sharing Class. It's a very nice class and it I had made some friends there. They thought Buddhism in Chinese and that's a good change to the previous way I learned Buddhism: in English. Tonight they had a Common Class where they invited a monk to give a talk.
About my room, I cleaned it up yesterday(finally) after my feet felt that they didn't cleaned it up as good as I wanted. Gonna vacuum it by next week. Now I am getting used to all those cold showers and walking to the common bathroom with nothing but a towel covering my underwear. But loneliness is still a thing to get used to. Especially at night. Don't get the wrong idea here mind you, I am a virgin! Ha ha just kidding.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
After the Camp
Now I felt the loneliness of walking alone to class, Eating alone, and doing almost everything alone. All my life, I had been wanting to be alone. Now that I had gotten that, I realized that I am just like everyone else: I had social needs. Ya, laugh on my classmates. I will make University friends! Just you see.
Now on to more serious matters concerning the IPhO. For the 49 students who went there and for those who are interested in this competition, this Year, The Malaysian Institute of Physics had decided to train the former 6 former in UKM for 5 months straight. Well as you might had guessed, I am the only one interested in this. And this time, they had decided to choose the top 8 first and not to choose the top 5 so fast. this will certainly ensure tough competition between the top 8 to be in the top 5 because the weakest 3 will have the most to lose as they will be studying physics and will have to catch up with their contemporaries. Let me with my personal experience advice you, it is more than enough time for you to catch up and revise your homeworks even if you start at the end of July. So despair not and strive on to finish your form 6 syllabus before the next camp. May the force of physics be with you.
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
Thursday, June 07, 2007
In Ukm now Finally got to online
I also gotta remember how many things I have signed in here, it's a public computer.
Monday, May 21, 2007
Sunday, April 29, 2007
Hoping but Afraid to hope
(Warning I am not in a good mood right now, so my sentence will be heavily mixed with my feelings and incoherent so let it be a challenge to you if you really want to understand me.)
Now I am better suited to describe what happen to me during the past week(23th to 27th). Ok I went to UKM
and does it fills with flies during the night. Not just any flies, those who like to stick around the artificial lights. Ok but UKM is good too, it has nanotech in masters and PhD.(every university has it too.)
Oh well to get to the point I got to play with AC circuits stuff, stuff you don't play with in school. Like the oscilloscope, function generator, digital multimeter, ahh...... but the resistors, inductors and capacitors you got in school. Oh ya I can say that this camp wasn't as mind challenging as the last one. Well having said that I pay the price of not doing well in the two mechanics questions. Mr. Wee did a good job in teaching us electromagnetic. Dr. Sithi as usual make mechanics a tough time to endure. Here's a sample question. Prove that when a tall and short person walks, the taller one will be faster but when they run, the speed is independent of their height.
Try it, hint this he said is Olympiad level and use dimensional analysis.
In relativity class I didn't went there. I went for the IQ test instead. Took me quite a while to finish it too. Just too bad that I knew I could have done better, I got a few wrong. First she told me to state what's missing in the pictures. That's easy enough so long as you keep your calm, I didn't at the last few pictures. Then.... wait I shouldn't be telling you this, if you know what to expect, you will get an unfair advantage in your IQ test and it doesn't really reflect on your true intelligence. Ok before that I took some EQ test too. I tried to be as honest as I can. But the most unsatisfying part is that they ask about "Tuhan". Ya, they don't know that not all religion believes in an omnipotent god. I don't, so I put totally disagree.
Well now you should now where did I do the EQ test. On Wednesday night, in Zu Ming and Kent Long's(the one who went to the Olympiad last year in Singapore) room, while watching Alien Resurrection. Ok I am sorry to have brothered them at so late an hour. Here I express my feelings of sourness.
Now to the people. People that I share rooms together. There were 4 Muslims, including Adel.
they were in one room. And now the rest of us, nine that is share 3 connected rooms. Connected by toilets. It so happens that 7 out of 9 of us are from Penang. So since they wanna sleep together in 2 rooms, I agreed to switch places with them and I got a Kedah roommate. Well my Kedah roommate wasn't too happy about the penang guys, so I guess I got somewhat influenced by him. (Oh ya all 15 of us are males.) Which I resist and I actually befriended them. Well I do agree they had an "air" of arrogance about them but maybe it's because they are considered the best in their school and they had a lot of friends together which makes making new friends unnecessary. So if anything harmonious is going to exist it was up to me. And I say I didn't did quite a perfect job with that. Only a good enough job so that I could have showered using hot water (you see their toilet near their room has hot water but mine hadn't) but my roommate didn't showered a hot shower during the whole the camp so I feel quite sorry about that. I guess typing it down doesn't clear the karma I have now.
Interlude: They said they were going to videotape us during the experiments during the last camp, but they didn't mentioned it at all this time. However I managed to looked up and discover that they had 4 hidden cameras in the lab. The cameras are white and hemispherical shaped on the ceiling. It seems that I was the only one who noticed the cameras since when I told the others about this they didn't know. The book store in UKM Pustanika wasn't quite good since it doesn't have SAT and TOEFL books unlike UM.
Sooooo now Let's go to more practical things. On Thursday I sat for the IQ test and shortly after that went for the practical test. 4 hours for 4 experiments. And I didn't finished one of them. they require 5 readings but I only got 2 and sent in 1. Too bad lah. And after the test we were free for the night. I went on to venture UKM. Well I went on to the one way lane to the law faculty and had to go through a forest by foot on the road. Well as expected I had to come back by the same lane..... I ran back. That night, I got a late dinner and slept relatively early.
However I woke up sometime around 7 and slept back! So I wasn't angry at anyone went my roommate was panicking about being late. I calm myself down and walked there, being late for 30 minutes for the 4hours theoretical test. I considered myself to do quite well in controlling my feelings so I didn't think it was being late that make me didn't know how to do all of the questions.
Ok now I am chatting with Siraj. And I better say I enjoyed the camp too before I change my mind about it. Ahh.. yes the title, I hope I can go to Iran, cause the chosen 5 will be notified by 10th of May and they will go to Iran, representing the country and meeting Stephen Hawkings!
But I am afraid to hope cause I don't think I can be in the top 5 looking at my performance.......