I've just learned from Big Bang theory that if you want to achieve something, you put a hundred percent of your energy into it.
The thing is, what if you're constrained from doing so? What if the only thing you want to achieve, to do in your life is not open to you until a certain time limit? What do you do then? Find another thing to do while waiting? Keep on engaging in things that contribute to your dream in almost all your free time? I was doing that for some time now. It's really tiring.
Tzu Chi has opened up a nice gradual path for me, but then my worldly ambitions seems to threaten to lengthen my stay here. Confusion, conflicts, contentment? Ah, suffering, I see you again. How wonderfully undesirable you are.
